Browns wide receiver Josh Gordon told GQ Magazine he used drugs and/or alcohol before virtually every game of his NFL career.
"Every game. Probably every game of my career," Gordon said in the question-and-answer session with GQ, which published Monday afternoon.
Gordon is scheduled to report to Browns headquarters Tuesday and reunite with the team after NFL Commissioner Roger Goodell reinstated him on a conditional basis Nov. 1. GQ interviewed Gordon the same day, just hours before he met with Goodell.
Gordon will be able to attend meetings, engage in conditioning work and individual workouts. As long as he meets the conditions of his reinstatement, he'll be eligible to start practicing Nov. 20 and play in the final five games of the season beginning Dec. 3 on the road against the Los Angeles Chargers.
"If Josh is able to get back and onto the field, which we expect will happen, that'll be a big boost to that group (of receivers)," head of football operations Sashi Brown said Monday.
But the more Gordon reveals about his battle with addiction, the more it becomes obvious how difficult truly changing his life will be for him.
Gordon admitted to GQ that he made "a ritual" of using drugs and/or alcohol before games. He said he did the same thing at Baylor University before the Browns drafted him in the second round of the 2012 supplemental draft.
"Even before I was getting tested for alcohol, prior to my DWI in 2014, I would take the biggest bong rip I could. And try to conceal all the smell off all my clothes. I'd be dressed up to go to the game. A bunch of guys smoke weed before the game. But we're not talking about them," Gordon said.
"I would have these little pre-made shots. I used to love Grand Marnier. I could drink it down smooth. I could usually drink a lot of it. But if it wasn't that, it might be a whiskey or something. And I would drink probably like half a glass, or a couple shots to try and warm my system up, basically. To get the motor running. That's what I would do for games."
Gordon said his drug abuse began when he took Xanax and smoked marijuana in seventh grade.