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Dear Amy: Many years ago, I started a musical group with two members of my extended family. We were good! One day out of the blue, "Keith" said, "I don't want to do this anymore," and quit. This broke my heart.

A short while later, I found out that he had joined another band and had taken our one remaining band member with him; this new group recorded a number of albums, toured part of the world and had critical success.

Approximately 20 years later, I get a letter from Keith, saying he wanted forgiveness for hurting me. I wrote back that it was not a big deal. In retrospect, that was the kind of response that I felt I should give, but it was certainly not how I felt. I was not honest with him or with myself.

In the years since, I only feel more anger about this. I was tossed aside. They could have done any number of things to ease the separation (cover a song, invite me to be a guest on an album, etc.), but they didn't.

What should I do? Should I speak my feelings after all this time? Another question that I have asked myself: What should I do with my collection of instruments? Their value has greatly appreciated over the years.

I want to be generous, but I do not know if I am that noble -- or forgiving -- after all that has happened.

-- The Old Guy

Dear Old Guy: "It's no big deal" is very different from, "I accept your apology and forgive you."

When "Keith" wrote to you after 20 years asking for forgiveness, he was basically telling you that this episode was a big deal in HIS life and that he carried 20 years' worth of regret about it. "It's no big deal" is really you denying your own feelings -- and his. "It's no big deal" is really a put-down -- to both of you.

This long-ago rejection should not have prevented you from playing music with other people -- then or now.

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